The day is looming ahead of us on the calendar. . . 40 days until we get on the plane to go back to the United States. We look forward to this special time with the people we love each year. But I must confess something to you. . .
All I am feeling right now is: STRESS.
In fact whenever we sit down to plan or figure out our schedule, a hard ball of stress settles in my stomach.
To our dear family and friends, please don't read this wrong. We are so looking forward to seeing you and spending time with you. But the reality is, we will not make everyone happy during our trip. Everyone has expectations of us and how much they want to see us. But our time is limited and then geography just limits us even more. Andy will only be back 2 weeks. How in the world can we see everyone, with enough time in two weeks? It is just impossible. So even as I type, I am trying to let this go. We will do our best to balance. To share the love. But I am just asking for a little bit of grace. Hopefully, if I can work through this now, by the time we touch down on US soil, I will be okay. I can enjoy our time without that little black cloud following me around. You would think that we would be getting the hang of this. But honestly, each year it is hard. But I am going to let go, giving it up to the Lord. And maybe, just maybe I can truly let all those people-pleasing-tendencies slip away. Here's to hoping, anyway.
welcome to the east side! oh how they do love the make up! even so, you captured her beautifully. :)
ReplyDeleteWe'll be happy to have whatever time we can get with you guys. It's a good problem to have, though - means many friends and family love you and miss you!
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