Andy left this morning for the first leg of his trip: Indonesia and Singapore (there was no other country, I just imagined that) and then Thursday night at a time so late that it is really Friday, he and I will meet up in New Delhi. This morning as he left our younger two were in tears. Which is really unusual for when he travels. Sure, they miss him and look forward to having him home. But since he travels with some regularity, they are used to it. I think the difference is that they know that I also will be traveling. And that is not normal. At least it is not normal for me to travel without them. While I know that they will be fine, I had a moment of Mommy guilty this morning. I know, I can just hear all of you reassuring me: "They will be fine." "It is good for you and Andy to be able to get away together" And this is all true. But part of being a mom, is the feeling of guilt or at least wanting to do things just right for our kids. And then I tend to be a person who wants to please everyone. But I am going to let go of that for now and trust that my kids are going to be okay. But if you could think and pray for them this next weekend, I would greatly appreciate it.
My plans this week will be planning, preparing and more planning. The packing I am not so worried about it. Because all I will pack on this trip will be a backpack. No, it is those 3 darling and so important ones that I am leaving behind that I need to plan for. As I sat down to write out their schedules only then did I realize how busy I am with them. Moms, does anyone relate? Because they are all in school full-days it can seem that life is not that busy, but the reality is something different. Then I have the added fun of writing out the plan and schedule in Chinese (for our house help who I know is going to be a HUGE help to our friend who is watching our kiddos). Andy and I figured out hotels and the train ride to Agra (the city of the Taj Mahal) over the weekend and have started to think about what we would like to do in Delhi. I am sure that I will research it to death in the next couple days. But for now, I am off to tidy and make yet another list.
Hope that you each have a wonderful week! Happy belated (for me anyway, not for the US) Mother's Day!
I fully understand. I always have that guilt when we leave. I put together a whole folder with maps, instructions, etc in it, Meals in the freezer, laundry done. Not that I like to be in control or anything.
ReplyDeleteIt's good that they will miss you, but it is good for you two to have alone time too!
I hope you have a blast.
Praying for your safety and peace for the kiddos!